yeah tough times in the life of eric
im on a break with kristyn
she made me mad by in what her eyes was "completely fine and reasonable to say to me" and to me it was completely offensive, demeaning and it made me sad.
i mean im not going into detail about some of the things she said...but there is a fine line between like telling someone something for their own good and like hurting their feeling which in turn doesnt really help at all. i mean there was so much on my mind from all the fighting and aggrivation that i had to leave work monday...i was just too strung out and stressed and just fucking out of it. i jsut walked home pretty much stomping the whole way there..just layed in my bed and slept
i mean i have goals...yes eric has goals..
i dont plan on sitting in parking lots drinking, smoking and doing nothing for the rest of my life. i mean just saying the words "for the rest of my life." god. i mean it shouldnt even matter what im doing as long as im healthy happy and not addicted to herion, crack, or crystal meth.
yeah i plan on going back to five towns in september ive thought alot about it.
i just gotta reapply and get some of that sweet as pie financial aid. and maybe i can even get a scholorship...i mean five towns has ALOT of scholorships for such mundane activities as picking your nose(kidding) but idk we will see what happens maybe i can get one.
and i need a new job...not only am i only making minimum wage of 6.75 but now we are only getting paid every two weeks...and by check now too. and im not allowed to get a ride by anyone who works there anymore so im forced to walk. or get a ride but no one is usually around...and i hate being bothersome to most people by making them go out of their way to take me to work...it just sucks
i hate fending for myself sometimes. i wish that my mommy and daddy or grandma and grandpa could fucking drop a car in my lap too. it just sucks...amanda got "the car" my mom had. and alyssa will probably get that if amanda buys another car bc they are the girls and they are close.
i relaly need another job for real.
a high paying job. with benifits
uugh
well i went out last night after megan rogers dragged me out bc ive been quite the hermit crab just staying home and listening to music.
and it was awesome. i smoked some weed and just relaxed. i hadent smoked in a couple of days too...it just really took the edge off the week ive been having and cleared my head...it was nice...and i woke up today ready to tackle ANYTHING
yeah im done with the pointless venting...PEACE NIGGA